Great momeries (:

2009-08-09T18:19:00.001+08:00

I have moved (:

http://ohshidah.onsugar.com/

Do relink me, alright

2009-08-09T14:58:00.004+08:00

That is my finger "Poking Pushing Pulling" Anisah.

Enjoy -_O

So is this Video. It Julinda & Me. Being crazy(:

So Enjoy :D

Anyway, Feel free to look at our Pictures at my multiply..

p.s : if you people don't like it. Just don't look at it again okay (:

2009-08-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

It seem that your life is so perfect with many girls all chasing to get you..

So it's just a waste of my time,

trying my best to get you to notice me.

2009-08-04T18:35:00.002+08:00
Argh, leg cramps -o-

I can't seem to put my tagboard & Links at "OnSugar". I spend two hours or maybe more trying to find out where to put.. But i does not work. Piss out abit leh..

So if you know how please help me alright?

Anyway. Did nothing at home just now, but watch Korean Drama then got bored again then watch FT Island & Big Bang & 2NE1 at Youtube. I really want Big Bang CDs/DVDs and the bigbig poster.. A friend from different school got his 2NE1 CDs/DvDs with the bigbig poster. I'm jealous of him. DAMN.. Someone brought that for him on his birtday(klau tk salah uh). Wish someone sent me Big Bang & FT Island CDs/DVDs and the bigbig poster. I want it real bad..
Why Singapore does not sell those stuff. Damn you, Singapore !! so troublesome ^^;

ByeBye Boo :D

2009-08-01T22:13:00.003+08:00

Ouhkae Go ^^

This Saturday is the worst & boring day ever. Normally Saturday, i went out shopping or eating some great delicious food but not today. I spent my time playing computer Watching Video from YouTube Eating yummy ice-cream Lying at the sofa Watching old dvds..
and I'm bored & hate school foods. They kept selling the same old food that i have been eating for the past few years.. Damn you school.

And Ibu kept nagging about small issue and about my messy room which i forgot to clean it up just now.. To busy being busy. Hahahaha. Get it? i know, Lame -__-
Argh, Mothers this days. Were they 14+ before...
Anyway, do visit my another blog. http://ohshidah.onsugar.com/

Byebye Boo :D

2009-07-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

Will be Missing In Action ^^

2009-07-24T18:54:00.008+08:00

Should i just kept quite? Maybe not.

Temperature: 36.8 ^^
Mood: Happy and a bit angry.

Great! My butt is better. No more feeling the pain.. I felt so relief nothing bad happened to my Nenek. I love her (:

I hate remembering about my past.. I'm a horrible person back then but i always have the semagat to study my maths just because of this person which now he change and becoming a total loser.. He is much more better when he join my class last year.. And this year, my eyes just open. I know the real him.. Such a bastard and a total loser.
I know, i have no right to judge him. But to bad. This is what i see in him.
A Total Loser. agree ? muahahahahaha *Evil laugh*

Yeah.. Tomorrow will be going to Johor. Since Nenek & Atok wants to Celebrate something plus Nenek's birthday at there... So i must go leh.
And Kak Thasha, Nahdia & their family will be following us. Yeah. My sister & i will not be lonely..Normally, no Malaysian Kids talk to us.. They think we are arrogant or what..
Hello, we are family's (i think) .. So please be friendly. ((:

Thanks So Jeong for being my friend and nice chatting with you..
Do visit my Country and i visit yours, okay (:

2009-07-21T17:19:00.013+08:00

Today..
Temperature: 37, Normal.
Mood: Lazy & Sleepy
Friends: Amazing
Myself: Stomach pain and butt cramps, Felt so horrible and pain

So at 12 0'clock when down and go back home.
and i made Nenek panic. Luckily Nenek don't have Heart problem..

Aw baby, I love & miss Eating Siew Mai with the hot Chili.
But i found it Disgusting eating that in a cup.

I really like what sheila said to me during Recess time. She said How am i going to tell him that i like him when i kept thinking that he would not like me back..
First of all darlink, He don't even know me.
And i have low Self-Esteem and I'm not that pretty as you so i don't dare..
And Guys should express their feeling to the girls not the opposite ways. But it okay sheila. I really appreciates that conversation..
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-07-19T21:34:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i wish i could just turn back time
When you were standing so close to me.

Szup,
Miss complaining to you about my life. Been busy with school works but luckily, i have my pink Paris diary. ^^
-Saturday when shopping with My beloved family..
-Sunday when to CSC to celebrate Haikal 17, birthday party.
-And Monday school as per normal..
So boring. I wish something exciting but must be good, happens at school..

Shooting Star,
Please let me see this stranger who steels my heart on the 1st July.. I promise to be a good girl and not making stupid promises to myself.. I just want to see him..
I try to forget all about him but The more I'm trying the more i kept thinking and The more i kept missing and the more i love him..
But lets just say that i move on and just wanting to see him (:

2009-07-10T20:32:00.007+08:00

I can't fall in love with a guy who i don't really know and who don't understands English, Right??
I can't think of him cause he don't even know who i am.
Shit *_-
It's just not fair for me.. Why must this thing always happened to me?
I really want to control my feeling but i can't..
Now i just wanna buy a ticket and fly to his Country and look for him.
and tell him how i feel for him which i should told him before he leave..
I'm so stupid, right?
Now it just to late, i can't turn back time.
This is my life, full of regrets ..

I'm going to be MIA until i knew the correct answer..

2009-07-08T16:44:00.020+08:00

Hurray hurray !!
i lost 2 kg and i am acceptable not overweight .. Yeah, i know.. 2 kg is nothing but at lease i lose weight then gaining.. So i need 8 kg more to go.. So lets burn fats..
And i piss off with two people.. Firstly is Sheila.. You wanna know why.. She said that she can't believe that i am acceptable and Juriah is severely Overweight.. and then she said that i look fatter then Juriah.. Damn right.. I hate people comparing me and then saying the wrong freaking thing.. You just make me wanna show you how wrong you are..
Secondly to this Non Singaporean Guy.. Shit, Do you give me a fake Account.. Argh, im pretty disappointed man.. Do you people hear before Hanmail.net before?I don't..But If yes, please please tell me kae.. Im desperate.. And whats Hanmail.net ?
Shit, I hate you for lying to me.. hahaha..
I just wanna go to his Country and finds his hometown, Shout out his name and when i founds him i say. " Damn, Why must you give me a fake E-mail address. I piss off with you. You are just being rude and unfair to me." And then throw water at him, if i have a water bottle if don't, i just can slap his face.. Huhuhuh ^^
But..... Do you think he still remember me? What if i did that and he call the polis cause a crazy Singaporean girl just did some stupid things.. So i better not uh.. Yeah, i must think twice..
And now i miss that freaking guy who lives far far away from my Place and give me a fake account..
I miss him shouting when he has a strike.. I miss his sweet smile and Big cute Voice.. I miss him trying to speak English which sound so Horrible but still am melting while hearing.. I miss everything about every single moment and person over there.. You know where right?
hahahaha (:

Nam Ki-Hoon

Nam Ki-Hoon & Park Ji-Soon

Japan Girls

Chinese Taipei

Chinese Taipei

Japan

David Tsang
Yoke Ming

Anisah

If you wanna see more pictures.. Go to my multiply okay (:
JULINDA: If you wanna see my sister's birtday pictures.. Go to my Sis multiply okey (:
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-07-05T18:57:00.002+08:00
Argh, I'm so tired.. I wanna sleep but i can't sleep. I can't wait for tomorrow but i' scary that it would not be what i Plan..
And today i took picture with Hong Kong China guy and people from other Country.. So tomorrow, i must take picture with Taipei Cute Guys and the Korean Pretty Girls and Hot Guys. It's a must taw (:
and wish yesterday teacher will be bringing us to the place not Mr Chai or Mr Tan JayJay.. They just don't lets us have fun while working and take photos, Damn!
So hope they are busy.. Okey (:
"Anisah dah bace doa untuk besok." Harap2 diorg that busy ehk..

I can't fall in love with you.. Shidah control. He is not from your Country. We are impossible to be together.. You're not belong here with me.. You don't even know that i exist only that you know that a crazy girl follow you around and cheering for your team member.. But it's all your fault. You the one who are making me like like you.. Since yesterday you stands beside me, cheering and shouting and smiling and being so stupid and playing with the water bottle and changing "Let's so Singapore Let's so TO Let's Go Korea Let's Go.. How cute is him... -_- .. You just make me melt while laughing.. and its my first time doing that.. I can't laugh while melting.. Really.. And i know, it just too Impossible !

2009-07-02T21:35:00.002+08:00

I changed my blogskin ! Cute Right..
Hahahaha..
I would not be updating quite often okay..
Busy with AYG and stuff.
So Singapore Good Luck and do your best and Nam Ki Hoon Fighting !! You can do it.
Hahahahahehehehehuhuhu (:
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-07-01T19:22:00.006+08:00

yO !

Today we went to Orchid Bowling Club For the AYG.. It was quite boring but we make it fun by laughing while working and smiling to people from other Country.. Korean Guys are so cute and also Taipei Guys.. See, im having fun looking at them (: hahahaha
Anw there's a man from Korea.. I think he is with them all.. but we could not let him in.. So he stand beside Me and Anisah since he can't go in.. We did talk and laugh with him.. He really want to go in so he wanted to give Anis money and stuff so he could go in.. But she refused, Good Job :D
Then we said that if you want to go in, you must give us TOP.. BIG BANG, TOP.. He took his phone out at let us hear Their song called Lollipop.. Too bad mister, i already have that song.. So you still can't go in.. Bluek ;P
He give up and stand with us.. We talked, laugh and he told us some Korean words. I asked anisah to tell him how old is them( the Korea people). You know what, they are 17 year old.. Quite young right.. hahaha.
and Park Ji Soo (one of the Korean player) so cute,no.. Very cute and Very handsome(: hahahaha.. He is also 17 year old. So happy.. hope to see him tomorrow and the next day until the end of the AYG.. Hope so okay (:
Pictures will be uploading soon okay.. Many many picture of people, places and friends..

Park Ji Soo Fighting !!
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-28T20:42:00.003+08:00

Us at Orchid Country Club.

OMG! I'm in big BIG trouble.. I still have not done my Science Assignment and i forgot where i put my class chart..
And i still have not receive the letter that my school give to all off us.. Damn shit.. Where did the letter go.. I really need that, you know.. I'm sure Mr Lee would nag and NAG..

I'm not ready for tomorrow.. and i'm damn not ready to see anyone at school especially people that saw me making a shame of myself..
I'm different now.. More claim and happy and i try thinking before making a move.. But im still SHIDAH, Siti Noorashidah.. (:
Im damn proud of who i am.. I love myself and i hate people who talks shits about my Friends. I don't care if they really want to talk bad shits about me but not to my friends.. hahahaha :D.

2009-06-26T14:23:00.005+08:00

Promoting my Phone ^^

3 more days to school reopen.. And i have not finish my Science Assignment and the class's chart.. I been busy this whole Holiday..
Going to camps and outing and Gathering.. Even i have no time for myself.. Hahaha, like real ehk... And maybe this Sunday, we will be going to AYG.. .. and its my first time going there.. Hope there will be cute Chinese Guys (: haahahahaa...
But mother said that every Outing will be cancel cause of the H1N1 thingy.. Damn.. Is it true? Maybe uh..
And i just hate people who reply late mgs, what if I'm in trouble or need helps immediately. I could be dead.. So take my advise.. Never puts silents or always bring your phone everywhere you go.. =.=

‘DaeSung and SeungRi’s ‘SHOUTING’ Photoshoot’

How cute are they.. The photo above shows their photoshoot for their 2nd musical called ‘Shouting’. It just makes me go “Awww…. “ so freaking adorable.. And i can't wait much more longer.. I just want to watch "19" "Why did you come to my house?" "IRIS" "Dance Sabaru" ... Please, if anyone knows where to watch, please tell me okay (: :) And please don't tell me to watch at the television cause i have no Cable or whatever.. Don't understand. it okey...
New or Old friends are always in my heart.. I cherries every moment i spend with all of you people.. I miss you and heart you all. So take care everybody.. And never let your love ones down.. and remember to Enjoy life and never give up.. :D
Everybody Fighting !!
This sound really weird, its sound like i'm dying.. Argh, whatever im just showing some love to all of my friends....
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-25T12:57:00.006+08:00

I'm ready to ran,
To ran away from you ..

안녕하세요 ,
I'm back.... I know. i should be back on Friday morning but it was shorten till Tuesday which is Yesterday just because of the H1N1 is spreading very fast.. i felt a bit sad cause 2 days 1 night, wow, pathetic RIGHT... But lucky, we went back. Cause my stomach can't take it much more longer, hehehe.... I make new sec 2 friends.. and Okay lah, i had fun and i pretty much enjoy myself...
and i Really want Big Bang's Album.. Why Singapore never sold them.. I search every single Music's Shop and there's no Big Bang Album... Shit ):
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-22T14:50:00.005+08:00

Szup people (:
Today, i suppose to do house cleaning and pack my bags right..
But what am i doing right now?
Chatting, Transfer songs, Blogging, Sending picture ....
I promise myself ..
But it's okey, later i can continue right?
I got everything all ready for W4 Leadership Camp just to pack them inside my bag.. wait, what kind of bag should i bring.. Army,Normal,Rip Curl??
So confusing ..
And ouh no no no.. i have no extra shoe for wet activities.. i can't reuse shoes.. So what should i do??
Lucky, Ibu wanna go to Boon Lay to buy something there.. So i can buy Cheep shoe.. I hate cheep stuff but this is just for camp and this is an emergency.. and i will never use it again.. i know, i never (:
So i be back on the 26 of June and that will next Friday, right ?
Argh, i got Pimple at my cheek.. If it small and i can hide it, i don't mind but this is so big and red.. People would stare and laugh at it.. I hate pimple.. And when pimple break out mean I'm coming my menstruation, Nooooooooo !!
I want to enjoy my camp and not worrying about that.. I hate menstruation..
So boys out there, you are so lucky ((:
And on the 18 July 2009, There will be an outing at Sembawang there for all OBS campers.. I mean all of the 4 teams.. should i be excited? Yeah, why not... So if u attend this camps and you know me or you're in the 4 teams.. Please go okay... but why Sembawang! i never been there. and Linda saed thats nothing over there and not many people goes there.. So yeah, why there? so if theres a cancel or change of date.. Please mgs me or email me at simple_gal_94@hotmail.com
My email.. Got it (:

So i be back, okay (:

"Lies cover" [IU with Park Sang Hyun's Sandara Brother]
She is just so good. i loved it! Great vocals. and shes only SIXTEEN.. (:
and he is just so cute. Good voice.. i dunno his age ^_^

So i'm off. Going to pack my bag.. i will update when i came back from camp, okay.. (:
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-21T20:42:00.005+08:00
I washed the dishes, washed my school shoe and slippers.. I'm doing all this just to get money from my mum.. She said if we(me & sister) want money, we must work for it.. Since my mum don't let me work.. So she asked us to clean the house and things that we must do.. So right now I need money to go shopping.. I need money to watch movies.. See, i totally desperate that i can do anything...
So schedule for tomorrow:

Clean my room -_-!
Dry my school shoe
Pack my Bag for Tuesday camp
Help mother to Clean House *maybe*
If i eat, i must washed the dishes
Put all the rubber band at my sister's room
I must not be lazy.. I can do it.. For money !! Hahaha.. Simple task right.. So yeah, shidah will do everything (; i mean it .. yeah ! i really can't wait for Tuesday..
And while i was looking at this forum, i saw this (:
Details of concert:Date & Times : Saturday, 18 April 2009 (7pm - 9pm)Venue : Seoul Olympic Park, Gymnastics Complex (around 10,000 capacity).. It's at Korea.. I know i can't go there.. But i just tell you people about it, okay.. And it's really is a once in a lifetime chance to watch Rain, Big Bang, Super Junior and Shin Hye Sung perform altogether!.. (:
The ticket, wow, so "Cheep".. Is like thousand dollars.. Who ever going there, will be pretty rich and lucky, right? But There's a note for the people who want to purchase it.. it says:
"i did some checking with kvipz (코코마탑횽) that Big Bang would be performing in this concert because of the ads they have done for Lotte Duty-Free shop. However, its not on the ‘official’ schedule thing yet. So bear in mind, you might want to think twice before purchasing to avoid disappointment." So think first, okey (:
and Mum, can i go there.. I will be a good girl and always listen to you and dad.. I "promise"
Haahahaha.. i know i can't go.. Firsty, who the hell wanna company me to go there and i can't speak Popper Korean and Secondly, Korea and Singapore is like wooo and i never been on a Plane.. And lastly, My family don't let me travel because of H1N1 and i'm too young.. Hahahahah (: Excuses right.. hehehe.. OMG! Disgusting.. Someone chat with me at Imesh.. Eeww, He asked me which school im in now? And i was like. Who are you, man? and why must i tell you ? Hahahaha.. i have a Imesh cause to get song and maybe make a pan pal NOT to chat with Singaporeans.. Hahahahah..
So Goodnight and see you around..
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-20T23:16:00.004+08:00

You scream
But there's nobody to hear, It doesn't matter
It's only you and me and all of your fears
So scream
A Halloween serenade
Illusions shattered
Wait 'til you're really afraid
You're gunna - ah - ah!

Just came back from Nyayi's house.. We celebrate Father's day and Anniversary's and Birthdays Gosh, I'm tired but I'm not that sleepy.. So what should i type about.. Yeah, something happened at school the other day.. Something that make me pause for a while then make that fugly face, that horrible face... So this is what i said to myself ((:

Why must i care ? I have no feeling towards him.. Really no feeling .. But why suddenly, you talked about him..? May i know the reason.. Maybe, he just so popular that my school friends were actually talking about him, Chey, popular sey ((; or it's random...
I'm just so confused and frustrated about life..
Byebye Boo :D

2009-06-17T18:00:00.004+08:00

Boy I love your style
Love your smile
Wish that you could be only mine
Be only mine
Can't let it go
I don't know what you're doing to me
You're so fine
Ooh you're so fine
:Big Bang - Number 1

I was cutting Vegetable and suddenly my mother say something very importance.

Mother: Shidah, i got something very importance to say to you..
Me: What is it? Are you pregnet? *Smiling*
Mother: Are you crazy.. Of couse not!
Me: Then what is it?
Mother: I'm going to sold you to someone *laughing*
Me: Really? Yeah!! *Jumping*

Then when we just finish eating our food.. She called me and said

Mother: look, im pregnet.. *showing her big stomoch*
Sister: Shayid! (the name of our "younger brother")
Me: Shayid! *runing to my mother and touch her stomoch and hug it*
Father: *look and laugh*
Hahahaha, i think my mother is crazy or she just being funny.. And i really wanna a younger brother.. ^_^

Ouh damn.. Tomorow i have Angklung practise.. Argh, im lazy to go but since all of my Girls are going.. So why not just go there and enjoy myself with them.. and i miss LINDA.. Linda bsk kita talk talk kae.. I have allot of stories and fresh gossip to tell you .... So you better go, OKEY ((:
ByeBye Booo :D

2009-06-16T21:33:00.003+08:00

Mother, WE LOVE YOU :D

Yah, i know.. Its going to be Father's day not Mother's day.. but i don't care.. I just love love her very much.. And duh i love my father also but i can't find our picture together.... So One day, i going to post his picture at here okay ((:
So lets continue..
That lady is my Beautiful Mother.. She's one understanding mother who love to have fun and joke around with her Wonderful Family(that's me)... She is so "talented" until we can't get enough of her.. I'm so lucky to be her sweetest(chey chey) and last daughter..
AND i wish you accept what ever decision i make okay ((:
Love ya

2009-06-15T11:39:00.004+08:00
Stay at home today.
Well i thought today i wanna go out with my Babygirl but Linda & Farna had Dance practice..
So tomorrow, you all must must be free and we go out together..
If you people didn't have enough money.. Nevermind lah.. Just bring some also can..
I have lot lots of story to tell you.. Lots of new fresh gossip and i just wanna shop with you...
Since Great Singapore Sale is here.. What are we waiting for.. Lets go shopping!
i will be bringing Aida along.. And she wants to buy Dress tube for herself..

Any problem just mgs me okey.. (:
i will reply asap..
and Time and Place will be confirm later okey...
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-14T20:38:00.008+08:00

Maybe i'm too late . . . Too late to say I LOVE YOU . . . .

Meet you guys soon kae ^_^
ByeBye Boo :D

2009-06-13T14:56:00.005+08:00

Lock the door, Pretend you're safe.
Cause at one point, you never be safe..

I'm back (:
Tried but still Happy.. Gosh, I think OBS camp was damn fun cause i got to try something new and i got to be independent...
but i still can't over come my fear of height.. and to me thrust fall was damn scary and i can't even climb the Rock Climbing but at lease i try climbing and Not to give up.. jyeah babe (:
New friends are LOVED :D
and Wednesday night is the best cause we stay all night talking laughing and having a great time together.. Hahaha..

♥Clarine
♥Christy
♥Samantha
♥Weishan
♥Suhaillah
♥Shu yi
♥Marcus
♥Faizal
♥Ramadhan
♥Tarandeep
♥Eddy

Meet you guys soon okey (:
and Clarine, i will ask you out if i want to go to the gym.. And we go there together Okey ((:
Christy and Samantha the great, i really had allot of fun with you guys.. and me all the pictures okey..
Marcus, Yupeyupe i will take sport and i will not be to soft soft..
Shit, my skin colour is changing.. Now it's damn dark Browne..

And Shit, i absent myself from AYG.. Serious i wanna go but i can't wake up.. I slept from 5 in the morning then wake up at 11pm.. I sleep like a pig.. Anis you should understand me what.. i know i'm not the only one who is tried but at lease bare with it.. it not that i don't want to come, and yeah i told the teacher that i'm going but i can't wake up.. And that's not my problem.. And i don't care if the teacher scold me or not cause i know i'm not like you... Sorry anyway . . .

And HAPPY DELETED BIRTHDAY TO SUHAILAH :D
i'm SORRY if i did any wrong or stupid things to you okey.. What ever it is, i HEART you and you will always be my great bestfriends ((: and enjoy your life kae girl..

ByeBye Boo

2009-06-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

Going for OBS camp
I'll be back :D

From ocean to sky
Summer and fall
I have been there though it all
From laughing and crying
To pain that comes easy
From shades of gray meaning
That turn out so sweetly
I wonder when
I wonder what I'll find...

I look up to the sun
It only hurts my eyes
Maybe it's the answer
I've been wanting in disguise
The more you are with me
The more that I'm alone
I don't need the answer I already know

Subtle and grace
Desperate for change
My hand moves away
Melt dry eyes for days
Something's not right
Smiles and tantrums
Hit the ground running
It's all over and been done

I wonder when
I wonder I'll find...
I look up to the sun
It only hurts my eyes
Maybe it's the answer
I've been wanting in disguise
The more you are with me
The more that I'm alone
I don't need the answer I already know

What happens next?
We'll stop and go
The promises has already run cold
So now you know
So now you know

I look up to the sun
It only hurts my eyes
Maybe it's the answer
I've been wanting in disguise
The more you are with me
The more that I'm alone
I don't need the answer

The answer
I look up to the sun
It only hurts my eyes
Maybe it's the answer
I've been wanting in disguise
The more you are with me
The more that I'm alone
I don't need the answer I already know

Byebye Boo :D

2009-06-04T19:58:00.002+08:00

You are such an Asshole
but still i like you (:

i've been busy this few days..
Yesterday and today briefing was fun.. I got to meet Harinna, Aida, Anizah(?), Mai and lots more people.. Anizah(?) was awesome today.. She can jump very high..
Harinna and Aida was very hyper and super funny..
And Fyka, i just love your hair..
and shit, 4 more days to OBS.. and i have not pack my stuff and i dunno what kind of bag should i bring.. Maybe i bring my father's Army bag.. Yupe, i gonna bring that bag..
On the 19, there will be Angklung Practice.. Damn, i'm tired..
i need to rest and cool my mind of things..
and I need to revised my mathematics's cause i really need to get at lease a D or a C for my Math.. No more U!!
and on the 23 until 26(?) there will be another camp for the Leadership what-so-ever Camp..
So hopefully i have fun (:
and i really tired now so GOODnight people.. I know it still 8.56 but i'm sleepy
:D
So byebye Booo..

2009-06-02T22:02:00.002+08:00
Tomorrow i must go to Hua Yi Secondary School for the Leadership Facilitation Thingy...
i'm so excited cause i will be seeing Fyka and her friends and lots more people, i mean friends..
but i'm so scared and worried cause i will be going there alone and My Girlfriends would not be around with me.. I can't live without them, seriously.. I'm not independent. i can't leave without people standing beside me.. and who will teman me to the toilet.. I'm shy and scared.. i watched alot of scary movies...So People can you do me a favour a big big favour.. Please talk to me if you see me sitting alone or doing things alone, I'm damn friendly if you know me properly.. So please be friendly to me..
But shidah, you must be independent.. I can live by myself.. I can do it.. but what if i can't... Shidah, you will make friends with people other school.. I hope somebody i knew, will be there...
So byebye Booo :D

2009-06-02T11:20:00.001+08:00
I'm so stress out with Camps..
AND thank anis..
You're one great friends.. Next time if you need any help. just press my number.. Okay (:

2009-06-01T16:30:00.006+08:00

The late night and the rain is pouring down
I keep seeing your face in my head repeatingly.
Come back. Hold back. Baby.
It's never gonna be the same again
I know that it's hurting me inside
And nothing's gonna change the way it is.
But baby. You got me.

I was sitting at the nearby bustop at my house.. While i was sitting there, i saw this cute yellow Butterfly flying to another Butterfly but then this idoit Car zoom pass them.. So the Butterfly were saperate again.
So sad ):
byebye Boo

2009-05-31T00:31:00.002+08:00

Name: Kim Tae Goon
January 15th of the year 2009 marked the debut of Taegoon, with his first mini-album, titled ‘Taegoon: 1st Mini-Album’..
Is he cute or what..
but still TOP, you're the best..
hehe :D

I just came back from my Grandparent's house..
Very tried but still I can't sleep.. I still wanna spend the time playing my damn Computer..
I laugh and eat and watch Scary movie with my crazy amazing Cousin AND my makcik pakcik AND parents AND grandparents AND sister.. Heart them..
"Jangan Tegur" a Malaysia movie.. that is the funniest movie ever.. The tittle tak suit with the story.. Hahahaha.. I can't believe that Linda said that the Story very scary.. but hell no.. Hehehe.
anw i'm bored with my life.. especially June Holiday.. i have no time to spent time with Gurlfriends and Family.. I will be spending my days at AYG and Camps and Camps.. Since this activity is once in my life time.. So i must go.. I want to try something new and i wanna meet new good friends.. I'm friendly (: Very friendly ((:

Ouh my friend,
i'm afraid to fall in love with you again..
i'm afraid of getting hurt..
i'm afraid that i will be crying over this matter..
so stop making me melt..
cause everytime you talk or just one sweet smile, i'm melting...
But sometime, i hate you and i wish we never met before..
Cause you're freaking words hurt me..
but you're cute laughter make me smile again..
But still i hate you (:
So byebye Booo
:D

2009-05-29T12:20:00.002+08:00

i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick i'm sick

This few days, i been having this painful bad headache.. and yesterday, i really can't take it.. I cry and asked my parents to help me.. It's so painful. like someone throw a wood at you.. Gosh.. I cry so badly until mu mum give up on me. it like killing me slowing very slowing but painful..
and today is the last day of school.. and im absent from school.. Damn.. But there's really nothing at school.. Very boring..

So June Holiday is coming.. But to me is all Camp Camp Camp.. I will be attending 2 Camps this June.. Bored.. I just told you that i Hate Camps. Why can't you people understands.. stupid ;P
But maybe i'm not attending the Leadership Facilitation Training.. Looks like boredness to me.. So yupe. Im not going. You people can't force me. Bluek.
im a gurl who hate Camping and stuff like that.. UNDERSTAND (:

ByeBye Booo

2009-05-27T13:30:00.004+08:00
Yesterday, i found out that you're lying to me..
Why must you lie? To get my attention? To get me worried? or to get more stuff?
I'm not that stupid okey.. Now don't dare to talk to me at class or whatever place..
don't bitch with me, okey (:

Anw i would like to go out with my Girlfriends on June holidays.. I wanna go to the beach or any place that we never went out together..
But June we will be busy, going for the what that Mr Chai asked us to go and the OBS camp.. I don't like camp. I just hate mud and high aliments or what so ever stuff you did at camps.. I always hate camping..
i should never raise my hand up and volunteers.. Kakak told me that OBS camp will be hard and scary, hahaha.. Only for me uh.. You wanna know what i thought of OBS camps.. I thought that it will be a luxury camp.. With resort and what ever stuff that a high class resort would have.. But i guess i am wrong.. So stupid.. So shidah will be dying over there..
hahaha.. So should i pack my stuff now? Wait, i think it's to damn fast.. And what should i bring. I think i lose the freaking paper.. Gosh, what should i do..?
never mind, Anis will be there to help me. ((:
hehehe..
and Hahahaha, Today i never when to school.. Cause of my painful headaches and my laziness.
hahaha.. I pass all my subject except for my math. hahaha, if i'm not wrong uh..
And i will do my best for the next test and my Final examination.
Jyeah :D
Byebye Boo

2009-05-26T20:46:00.001+08:00

Finally, i knew the truth..
so don't bitch with me

2009-05-25T17:38:00.003+08:00

Your piece of Shit!

Where are you boy? Are you gone for good?
I hope you're okey, living your wonderful life once again..
Remember, i always be there for you, Asshole (:

hahaha, today no angklung so i when back home when i had finish eating my Yummy Chicken..
i did some brave things today, so i'm proud of myself. Yeah :D
and today, my first time doing it.. i just ate only two piece o yummy Chicken and No other foods. Just plain chicken.. so i don't know its a good thing or a bad one...
but I just heart CHICKEN so much lah shayang..
and syukuri stop being a pain in my butt, okey friend..
Gosh, i just hate when i'm doing my work and then YOU, Syukuri disturb me and looking at my damn work.... So kepo.

and i scream almost 3 times cause i got scare by people and get shock with people around me..
see, ghost movie and story really make me scare until my life get affected.. hahahaha ((:
so byebye boo ..

*Update soon*

2009-05-24T17:57:00.003+08:00

Currently, watching Boys over Flowers again..
Cause my sis haven't finish watching disc 2..
So before i can watch disc 3 i must accompany her to watch disc 2 AGAIN...
So yesterday, Sis brought many Dresses and clothing..
BUT me only one black & grey legging from Cotton On.
that so not fair..
i wanna brought this Sunglasses also from Cotton On but Ibu don't let me buy..
so sad right..
i seriously felt like crying and begging for it but later what will people think, i am? a crazy lady??
gosh.

It's okey, i can buy it with my own Money that i save it..
Linda Figthing !!
i know you can do it..
and tomorrow, wish he came to school (:
i really wanna give The chocolate to him..
:D
ByeBye Booo

2009-05-22T16:58:00.003+08:00

I'm so stupid..
I should give it to you went you are sitting alone..
So monday morning, i will give it to you..
No worries ((:

2009-05-21T18:20:00.002+08:00

Ayah, i want this phone.. T707...
Quite nice right..
it have Blue Black and Pink
I like pink the most...
So please ayah.. ((:
i be a good girl...

2009-05-18T14:04:00.005+08:00

i know i'm weak but that does not mean..
you people can bring me down..
cause i know i'm stronger in other ways
and i'm going up up and up!!
( if no meaning, sorry )

Eating my tasteless biscuits really make my stomach full...
I really like eating that tasteless biscuits that my ayah brought for him not me..
i think when he came back home from work, he will be freaking shock cause the biscuits magically disappears.
of coarse i will tell him that i ate it all (:
can you see that i am a good daughter..

Anis, tomorrow bring Boys over Flower punyer Cds kae..
I really want to see..
and i think i just fall in love with Kim Bum(?)
and that curly hair guy, i dunno his real name..
So cute and hot but T.O.P still the best yaw :D
hahaaahaaaha

*Note to self *
I must not be too confident.
Never give up.
Do my best in everything.
Life always have a meaning when it comes to the end.. (?)
Don't say negative things to myself.
Love myself for who i am . (:

I have 6 notes for myself.
and i must remember it all..
Shidah going to change for the best and not for the worst, okey...
Number 4 i don't think there's a meaning.. Yupe, sure no meaning..
And i just heart number 6 Cause it will be easy to LOVE myself..
"Smiling very very big"
Byebye Booo :D

2009-05-17T17:54:00.004+08:00

I really need a new hp..
My old damn hp is going to die soon..
So ayah, please...
buy for that HANDPHONE ((:

I'm so tried of pretending that i don't care anymore..
i'm going to tell the world that im still living and don't dare to make me angry over somethings..
cause this time i will not ignore it anymore.
Shidah will take action.
don't make me turn into an horrible lion..
argh, i just hate lion..
Lion are so ugly and they eat people
yupe, i'm being childish but i just hate lion and
the only animal i heart is a Dog even if i can't tought it but they're one cute animal..
and look at it's eyes.. Puppy dog eyes (:
Byebye Booo *_*
and remember, i'm changing so you better be thankfull..

2009-05-16T20:20:00.003+08:00

I'm caught up in you.
I'm facing the truth.
What else can I do, With all these emotions, Cause I'm,
I'm falling deeper in every way.
I can't sleep at night, Cause nothing feels right.
I can't deny,
That how when your near me, my love,
Grows stronger every day.
Caught up in you.

I just heart my Pink Paris Dairy.. I can't wait to print all my photo and paste it in my dairy..
I just watched Lost In Love which is the continue of Eiffel I'm in Love..
Meaning that Eiffel i'm in Love has a part 2..
just heart that movie.. (:
and then i watched Ku Tunggu Jandahmu(?)
very funny movie..
so there's lots more Indonesia's Movie that i will be watching during my free time..
so anis i can return your Indonesia's movie when i watch all of it.. Can right??
then you can also return my English's movie when you watch all of it but Another Cinderella Story & The Clique, you must return it on Monday cause that not mine DVDs

2009-05-15T22:52:00.004+08:00

I tried but I can't fake it
I see you calling but I know I can't take it
After covering all those bases
Been here before you should know
You can't have it all...

i really have fun just now with Anis & Farna..
my stomach is damn full with the foods we cook..
So next will be Anis's crib but dunno when and then can play with her Cats..

2009-05-14T18:25:00.004+08:00
I love laughing with her.. She's is one of my best friends.. Suhailah is her name.. We called her Sue.. Those picture shown that we seriously have fun taking geeky & silly pictures at my house... Hahahaha, thank ehk sue for that day and sorry if i did anything or say anything that make you hate me.. and please stop making up storys kae..

And Finally, there's no more exam.. So now i can have fun.. Jyeah (:

so tomorrow, My adorable Friends will be coming over to my House and we will be watching Scary movie and also funny plus romantic movie.. and dancing plus taking pretty and silly pictures. hahaha, really can't wait.. We will be going to have lots of fun..
So make sure you girls are coming
or else i be pretty disappointed lah..

2009-05-13T12:06:00.003+08:00

You just don't get it right?
the reason that i always behave different when I'm with you..
the reason why i always smile at your silly mistake..

2009-05-11T17:03:00.003+08:00
Good afternoon (:
Im just here to spread the loveeeeee.

I think i lost My library book
i don't remember where i putted it last Saturday..
It's must be somewhere in my house or in my room
cause books never gone missing by itself..
but what if something hide it,
no no no, i sure i miss place it..

I been having this headache since yesterday..
Its been bothering me and i have no energy..
i'm been lazy to clean my room(since when did i started cleaning my room), wash the dishes(i though ibu did that everyday).. Oops, i did nothing this few days, but i still have no energy.. i even can't open my eyes big big and i always feel so sleepy..

why ehk??
am i dying???
am i weak????
I think i need to sleep early uh..
so goodbye :D

2009-05-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

Annyeong haseyo (:
Hahaha, having fun laughing at my sec 2 picture?
i look so different. . .

I have many work to do.. Firstly i need practise for my CPA practical, must practise on my excel skill and mircosoft word skill.. but i'm confident that i can do it.. Cause i scored well for my CPA test.. soo yupe i confident..
Next, continue doing the work that Mr lee asked me since Mid Year start from now i'm still doing it.. Agrh, i don't know why mr lee must asked me to that and this.. Firstly the contact tracing then now this Class's chart.. You know that i'm stressing allot..
But i think i know why he choose me to do that cause i'm responsible and creative and yah, i love helping people but not now..
I need to focus on myself. Meaning that i need to take extra care for my body and face.. Because of this Class's chart my face started to grow more pimples.. i just hate pimples. But its okey, i still have Pimple cream which is one of my bestfriends... Hahahaha ;D
and i need to wash my school shoe and cut(?) my long finger nail.. It's so long until i scratch(?) my right eye.. I still can felt the pain. Aw, i think it bleeding..

I never been a fan of long goodbyes
I'm at the finishline and you're just way too far behind
In the morning, I got in the fight with myself
I got the bruises to prove it
Then I swallowed your words and spit them right back out

2009-05-09T12:24:00.002+08:00

How could I believe anything you've ever said
I'm on the bottom of your shoes a little piece
I never wanna hear you sing you sound just like a little kid
something just aint feelin right and I think I'm losing track of time
But you're far away and out of sight
so I can't see straight, I'm goin blind
Nothing's gonna change this time.Nothing's gonna change my mind.

2009-05-08T19:27:00.005+08:00

Long walks in the dark
Through woods grown behind the park
I asked God who I'm supposed to be
The stars smiled down at me
God answered in silent reverie
I said a prayer and fell asleep

Kak thasha get well soon kae.. Don’t think of so many stuff, threw them aside and i know you are strong.. One day, i will visit you kae, if you are still at the hospital lah.. So get well soon..
Sarang hae (:

Everyday i saw you standing outside your classroom, looking so blur looking so clueless.. i hope i know what you're thinking about but its impossible to hear what people are thinking.. and one day i saw you with your Friends, talking and laughing at each other and I know this would sound so weird and fake but suddenly everything stop and i could only saw you and people around you were gone.. its like magic but i know its not, its just my brain only wants to focus on you, Only you.. Is this called love or just my brain stops working...
:D

2009-05-08T12:38:00.002+08:00

Itu dier.. Anisah (:
Dreaming about the day when you wake up And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time If you could see that I'm the one who understands you been here all along so why can't you see, You belong to me.

Im lonely now.. No one to talk to or to eat with..
YouTube save my day.. I'm finding the movie "Boy over flowers" but some no English sub.. and then lazy of finding that drama so i just watch some funny video people post it in here..
argh, im still bored.. So that's why im blogging..
Yesterday EBS paper was quite easy and i think i can do it..
"Ayah, i want a new hp, my hp suck already. Please ayah! i be a good girl and always listen to ibu.. I promise (:" i really need a new hp.. I want the latest and the most expansive hp ever.. hehe ..
I love drawing cartoon people " mean that it is people but it does not look real, only the hair look real.."
then got one of my drawing looks like a china doll.. Really.. especially the hair..
:D
Argh, i hate doing this contact tracing.. Why must mr lee choose me.. i just hate wasting my pp8 massaging classmate to remind them that on 12 May, we will be taking the god damn temperature.. Irritating bastard.. Can you see that i'm busy...
why can't teacher mgs themselve.. You know student are very busy studying and doing there stuff.. urgh...
Ibu asked me to clean the house.. Lazy but then i told her if you want me to clean the house you must give me money.. Then she agree.. So at 2.00 i will be a part time maid.. hahaha
so i'm going to end here.. and now i'm going to take a bath.. a very long bath.. No one can stop me doing that..

goodbye, Anneyeonghikyesayo (:

2009-05-06T17:45:00.001+08:00
i'm move on And i'm change
So i m just so sorry to disturb your freaking life..

2009-05-06T16:30:00.002+08:00
At last Mathematics's paper finally over. Yeah yeah!! and math's paper 2 is quite okey, and i think i can pass with only red flying colours.. ahaha, lame right...
And today went to Jurong Point to search for New Notebook but damn shit, i forget to bring my money.. Idoit right.. So Anis & Me just look at that cute notebook. I felt so poor.. Then saw many many of hot shades.. Cool, i wanna buy that.. and it only cost $15.90. Quite cheep. And that amount of money easy to get, i could just ask my parents or just use my beautiful money....
and then we headed to the Library to read book or magazine & study for EBS..
I love EBS but i fail and get U for that subject.. Horrible right..
i saw many familiar faces from JurongVille & i think i just saw some old friends.. But do they remember me?? Hope yesh ehk.. But if not, disappointed. hahaha.. (:
And then got this boy, one of my old friends.. i think he knew me.. But shit he never smile.. Hahaha, terkejut pe yg tu aku.. anw ingat this post tk? "I hate this girl name siti Shidah"
:D
I miss this guy in my class. I always remember that happy days when we are in sec two, when you just join my class when you're not an asshole.. Hahahaha, great memories that i think it's time for me to throw all of it away, far far away from here.. Cause i think he never ever going to start talking to me back.. Stupid, i wish that day never happened.. and we still remain friends..if only i have the guts to talk to you and say that im sorry for acting like a bitch and can we be friends again.. I just miss talking to you , laughing at your silly voice and miss scolding you.. So shidah, stop dreaming and have a life. You can't forever dream about it, cause it will never going to happen.. and shidah you're strong and not weak so stop crying for that asshole..

i finally stop breathing just to get hold of you(got meaning?)

2009-05-05T19:00:00.002+08:00

Mathematics's Paper 1 was very damn hard. I did my very best But still i have no confident about my final answer..
Aw, i hope i pass, if i fail. nonono, waisted uh..
study until midnight and buying assessment book, that will be a waist.. hahahabut nevermind, i know i try my very best.
and Just now Anis,Su,Linda&Farhana were at my Beautiful house.. Studying taw not playing or what so ever..
But of course lah, we surf the net for a while, watch tv and aslo talk-talk about stuff.. Not people... You think what we have not life to talk about you people.. hahaha
hahahahahaha Linda bring her laptop.. And luckily Kakak never bring Our laptop to school, so we decided to Take photo at my laptop since her laptop web-cam very dark... So i will be uploading our photos kae...

Do your best for Your Mid-Year-Examination yaw..
wee~

2009-05-02T21:10:00.002+08:00
Currently Downloading Korean & English songs.
yahoo!!
i'm so happy cause i will be hearing my favorites song at my phone.
Today is the last day i'm using the computer, No more surfing the net SHIDAH
luckily i have the songs that i just download to transfer at my mp3 which now that freaking device is dead and in my phone..
and now still waiting for all the songs to finish downloading.
Is going to take a while but its okey.. i can wait for a while.
and later at 9.30, my favorite Taiwan drama "TOGETHER" going to start..
Wee, i can't wait..
18 more songs to go..
Hurry hurry up please.. i really can't wait much more longer..
So i be back when mid year examination are over..
wish me well. Hope i can do my best..
Lost of love..

2009-04-30T20:52:00.005+08:00
Annyeonghanseyo :D

I spent The whole day watching "I am your teacher"(I am Sam) and Now
i Finish watching it..
The ending was so sweet and overall the Drama was okey okey and i like it..
and now my eyes are freaking tried and i feel like i wanna go to bed but my mind still wanna watch more movie..
O_o I'm addicted to Koreans Drama..
Next drama that i will be watching is "Boys over flower"
if i'm not wrong Anis told me that SS501 is acting that drama..
*must watch must watch*

i really need a new RED notebook "Dairy"
and i really need to stop playing this thing called "Computer and Laptop" which almost everyday i play it. i must stop playing it cause MID YEAR EXAMINATION is around the corner.
And the date going be on This coming Monday(if i'm not wrong).
and i'm still surfing the net watching Dramas and blogging..
hah stupid siak!!

And to SOMEONE
I never edit my pictures okey.
all nature, even no make up.
just the light of the camera's flash..

waah, i just drank Strawberry milk and its so refreshing.
My father brought me Two carton of Strawberry milk and now i just love my father very much.
and thank you Ping ting for helping me download songs..

2009-04-29T18:07:00.006+08:00
T.O.P (Choi SeongHyun)
I'm currently browsing Big Bang's MV and lasted update..
Aw, is T.O.P so cute & handsome
and i still wanna continue watching I am Sam (Korean) with English sub..
I'm still at ep 8.4 and there's many more..
damn shit..

and Today.
Mr Bohari told me that the thief admit that he stole my precious money and the other as well..
stupid boy..
i will never thrust u anymore and don't dare to show that ugly face of Ur's..
and why must You genius people look down on us uh..
why not happy that we laugh loudly ehk?
We life our live so you life yours okay..
i have no problem with you people, so please don't test me..
*smiling*
i heart Suhailah i heart Farhana i heart Ayu keciq i heart Anisah cine i heart Julinda i heart Farrah..
And one word to that loser who used us went Her bitchy friend left her alone.. GET LOSE, MOVE BITCH MOVE.. If you want me to hate you.. Here now i'm hating you... She's always changed her normal skirt after school to her very tight short school skirt.. She just wanna show off her berdaki legs.. Disgusting.. And please lah the hair.. whats wrong with your damn hair.. and please remember to bath cause you and your hair stinks..
EWW!
i saw her picture.. She is standing next to That cute Gurl.. hahaha.. Yupe, she's once my best friends but now not.. cause she always make us fight and she change becoming like some ass gurl.. ahaha, i should watch my words but heck care lah sey..
and that was Farrah's birthday party at her Beautiful House.. and there's her beloved boyfriend and of course us and Abg Sani, must respect him lah and Idir and Firhas(?).

Good night people :D
I heart you

2009-04-28T15:54:00.003+08:00

Damn shit!!
i lost $19..
Who ever the person is i would like to say something to you..
Are you very poor until you need to stole my money which i want to save it and spent it. Uh, what your mother never give you money ehk, so sad. So you must be very poor.. and hello you can have the guts to stole farrah, Farhana & also suhaila's money some more..

So 19+2+2+5=$28

You must be very happy to stole your own classmate money uh
it must be that guy who once stolen farrah's hp..
once a thief always a thief.. right farrah..
No heart person...
If you really need money, try asking from your big brother lah.
wait, i think your big brother also don't have money.. hahaha...
cause if you're poor your family also poor..
then work lah.. Oops, you can't cause no one wants you cause you're to stupid and lazy..
i know, i being very rude.. and i should watch my mouth but too bad.
i'm just angry and piss out with this thief.

i'm just to tried of thinking about Stupid People..

2009-04-24T17:23:00.002+08:00
Have my First paper today.
Malay paper 1 is easy
English paper 1 was quite easy but letter writing was shocking hard..
seriously, nothing was in my mind.
i was not ready and i forgot today have English exam..
I thought today only have mother tongue paper..
so now i'm hoping i did very well..
Teacher hold us back cause one of my classmates phone went missing.
His phone is N95.
i felt pity for him, seriously..
i know how you felt okey..
i lose my Mp4 before and i never found it..
Don't be sad kae my friends..
and Mr Lee don't anyhow touch my stuff and please don't shout cause your voice sucks and it's irritating you know...

How hard is saving money uh..??
i just spent $10.
and later i will be spending $29.90 on this Cap..
and later inside my furry wallet left only how many cents,
shit!!
i really need to stop spending money on shade and caps.
and keep saving so you can buy many stuff later...

2009-04-22T18:20:00.002+08:00
Today SYF...
and i think we did well
but sadly we still got bronze(Maybe)
So sad right
We practice very hard and we though we will get Sliver but sadly Bronze.. and i know I'm repeating that word "bronze bronze bronze bronze"

AND i just dream that you still want to talk to me and you're my friend..
but sadly we stop talking when i start becoming like a bitch to you and you're not even my friend...
I started to cry when i woke up..
and i kept remember that freaking wonderfully day which is last year
when i always count on you to make me laugh and even smiling non-stop.
But to bad it's just ended..
i hate losing a friend and you're one amazing great guy friend...
and i always believe in you..

mid-year exams are coming... And i just starting to be worry .. Wow, i need to focus..

This is the thing that i should not be doing..
no more having fun
no more asking Farhana to put my books in her bag
no more copying
no more day dreaming in class
no more listening to hasmir's storys
no more staring at the whiteboard
and lastly
no more playing with my laptop..

and this is the thing that i must do.
i must sleep early
i must study at home
i must do homework
i must listen to my mother's advise
i must believe in myself
i must pay attention in class
and lastly
i must go back home straight
:D
i have a crush on this Chinese guy..
and
Chinese guy turn me on
haha..

2009-04-17T20:43:00.003+08:00

I'm stress out
YAW Bunny..

2009-04-17T19:54:00.003+08:00

I promise i be good to you, I promise
:D

Do you love the smells of Chocolates melting right infront of your face?
I do..

somebody told me that time is on our side
but how can i believe that when you're still on my mind
and i analyze everything that you say i cannot leave you for one day
i'll try to but i can't walk away
it's been a month now i should be over you
i just want myself back this ain't what i'm used to

i'm desperate for something i'm desperate for loving the one who made me this way
i'm sick of my own mind don't want the saddest kind of this happiness
i'm desperate

i wish it would storm now do you know how rare that is for me to listen to the raindrops and try to undo what i did
i'm not one for regrets and i usually don't like rain but you made me do each one from all this stupid heartbreak pain
i've had enough time to make myself hate you why won't it just work this ain't what i wanna do

i'm desperate for something i'm desperate for loving the one who made me this way i'm sick of my own mind don't want the saddest kind of this happiness i'm desperate
i'm living in love and i'm dying in hell you're murdering me and i'm killing myself what have you done to me
i'm desperate for something i'm desperate for loving the one who made me this way
i'm done with my own mind don't want the saddest kind of this happiness i'll admit it, i'm desperate

A song by Ally Heman
i really love her songs..
click here if you wanna hear her songs..
http://www.myspace.com/allyheman

Before & After of Katy Perry
Nice right. I know..

2009-04-16T18:32:00.006+08:00
Big Bang feat. 2NE1 - Lollipop (english subtittle)

I love T.O.P, G-Dragon, Seung-ri , Tae yang , Daesung...
but to me, T.O.P IS the cutest and he is so handsome uh babe..

i had malay oral and i think i suck at it..
my malay was horrible..
i know i speak malay at home and i'm pure malay
but i prefer talking in English..
I just love korean people..

2009-04-14T18:37:00.019+08:00

Sorry Durah..
Nazrul said that he wanna give you your guitar tomorrow..
So since he is your classmate, i just give him..
i know you asked me to bring tomorrow but he really like forcing me to give him..
i know suck right..
and now i'm just scare of durrah scolding me and screaming his voice out just because i give his guitar to his friend, Nazrul..
But i'm just so sorry and i felt bad about it..

And people, i didn't not save my money.. I spent it on yummy foods and drinks..
idiot.
So maybe i would not have $50 dollars in my wallet by this Saturday or even next Saturday..
i can save my damn precious money..
and then i can spent on many adorable stuff like..

Topshop-$15.90

Topshop-$25

Forever 21-$18.80

Forever 21-$22.80

Topshop-$40

This is my shopping list. I will defiantly buy all of this.. No matter what, i will look for it and then buy it.. And i will be the most happiest girl even in this Earth..
woohoo...

and today i'm just damn angry at that GUY who wanna quit school and wanna quit everything in life just to sleep and have fun everyday.. hahahaha.. Stupid right, this boy.. I just felt so sorry for you and i just freaking upset with your decision..

2009-04-13T19:08:00.005+08:00

Yeah, i been busy thinking and learning from my mistake..

Should i be friendly to people who just don't want to be nice to me?
I think i should and Shidah please grow up.
and be one nice Women/Teenager..
Exams are coming and i'm still not confident
and i'm still week in my Maths and Science..
Relax, i can do it..

yeah yeah, I'm saving money!! Now in my wallet i have $32 and 60 cents..
Many right.
i know..
and when it reach $50 plus if can $100.
then i will spent..
i'm going to buy lot lots of clothes and dresses and pants and skirt..
i know
i love to shop and spent money..
but money does not fall from a tree right.
so i'm going to work at my house.
doing housework and ask mum and dad for some money..
and save it and spent it.
woohooo

and today after school..
farrah meet her boyfriend, Fitri (:
last long taw shayangku..
then His bro, Sani pun follows..
they all wanna go to NUH cause farrah's grandmother was admitted at the hospital and also the boys auntie, i think so uh..
We slack for a while uh with them..
hahaa, i talk allot cause i was very mad at someone..
farrah was mad too.
then after slack with them me & friends need to go back to school cause have CCa..
So like normally carry our school bag uh.. but i don't why. i just can't carry my Adidas's Sling bag..
i think my arm are going to drop if i carry it again..
cause it was damn heavy.i do carry lots of unimportance stuff in it.
then i complain uh..
Suddenly Sani, my hero for today..
he told me that he wanna carry it for me since i can't carry it by myself..
so ape lagi uh..
i said "YESH"
i arm was so relieve but only for a while cause Sani needs to walk at a different pathway.. damn shit.
so I carry it with my pain arm. and walk unsteadily at the street macam orang giler..
hahahahaha

Ouh, i forgot something.
one phrase for you ehk bustard(his nickname)..
"Please change and have a good life"
whats the point of going to school but never study uh...
what are you doing at here when i always saw you just sleep
and using your phone and miss classes.
urgh..
i just damn freaking irritated with it..
i know i'm nobody to you but just remember that i'm your friend
and i care about you..
so enough and study, exams are coming..

2009-04-10T20:53:00.001+08:00

Julinda,
I'm still at Cloud Nine..

2009-04-10T19:41:00.004+08:00

Argh, i think I'm sick..
my nose is really-really killing me..
and i can't talk or study cause it's really making me frustrated with it..
yeah, i study at 2.30 until 5.00.. And now i currently free and playing my old freaking computer..
i can't use the laptop cause my sister is playing it.. Damn it right..
But computers and laptops are the same thing what..
at lease i can surf the net
;D

and tomorrow i going to work at Juriah's brother wedding.. And Julinda maybe suhailah and anisah is not going..
and it will be damn freaking boring..
but it's okey. i will have fun working..

my mind keep driving me nuts
when i keep thinking of you
you're cute
and hopefully nice
and of course damn smart
ever since that day
i can't kept my mind of your face..

2009-04-09T17:58:00.006+08:00

i really-really miss alot of stuff yesterday..

i smile & talk allot at class.. omg..
what happens to me..
wait, i always talk allot what.. but wth
i miss my friends even my guy-guy friends..

What happen to you this year?
i don't understand you anymore.
and you change allot, yesh you change.
linda told me everything..
that you wanna quit school..
Boy, you have a life.. please don't be stupid and please don't be like that no life guy..
You are smart and i know you can be successful one day.
So please don't be like that.
i believe in you, why can't you believe in yourself..
i always remind myself that you're my friends and we would never be more than friends.
even though you used me when you've no friends and whatever that i think you broke my
freaking heart.
i wish i could stop crying every night when my freaking mind kept thinking of you
but as a friends, i love you
and i miss the old you..
:D

2009-04-08T13:56:00.005+08:00

Do i believe in miracle??
Maybe ;D

Lao shi wo ke yi shang ce sua ma (?)
Teacher may i go to the toilet?

i need money, so should i work?
no no no. i'm to young to work and my mum surely don't let me :)
and mum said " if you want money, do house work. then i give you money"
gerek uh.. but i'm too lazy to do house's work..

So now i think i must save some of my pocket money and spent it only when it reach $50..
so yepe yupe

*mummy, may we go Genting again?*
i just wanna go there again. i had too much fun and i enjoy it. Its the twice time i go there and that last Holiday was the last...

2009-04-08T10:22:00.007+08:00
I'm sick and tried (:

I had leg cramp-stomach pain-headache
and include my fear of raining 2.4 km..
That explains my absence today :D

Simple enough..

2009-04-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

Yeah Yeah, i'm done with my math's homework.. I feel good. cause it's the second time i do my homework at home.. I always do it at school..
and p.s i never copy and i learn from my mistake..

anw i freaking mad at my Earpiece.. It's spoilt.. One side can hear and the other side cannot. Why must this happen again.. I just brought them and it's pink in colour...
wait, i think it's okey already.. I think i don't need to buy a new one..

And yesh, tomorrow is Monday.. And Monday i usually have fun.. You better come to school ehk boy.. Make sure or else i will hurt you and kill you slowly.. hahaha, fake.. You think im so free and i never dare to hurt anyone or people who hurt me before.. hahaha.. I will try to control my anger and Jealously.. And it's make me a better person.. I know sound so fake but this is me..

And i'm currently hearing some lame freaking song.. I can't beleive i still hear this kind of music.. But it's sound so nice and when you hear it, your mind wil be like "what the Hell".. See..

and tomorrow, CCa!! urgh.. boring.. And Tuesday we will be performing at the hall during Upper sec asembly.. Ouh My.. I'm going to freak out and i will be looking at people's eyes.. And i surely think people will talk bad about us.. and that will be freaking rude.. You people must not talk bad things Okay..
i know, too dramatic

-ttfn

2009-04-04T14:46:00.003+08:00

wo jian hong se de shou biao.(?)

Jin Tian
was very boring.. Maybe i going to cut my fringe.. and sister will reborn her fringe (:
Faster hair grow longer and longer..!

Note to self :D
-Do maths homework
-Cool down
-Believe in myself
-Love everyone
-Don't give-up
-Pay attention
-Bring school books
-Be clever

Hope this note will make me success and happy...

Urgh, sister keep singing and strumming the guitar.. It's so irritating
but it's okey.. She wants it to be perfect what. AND
i'm just jealous cause i dunno how to play it..
but i'm learning ((:

AND that Marcus never reply my mgs.. i wanna ask him a question... Stupid.. but it's okey lah.. i will wait and wait until he reply.. Hahaha, sound desperate ehk.. No i'm not. Freaking..

ttfn-

2009-04-03T17:46:00.003+08:00

Wednesday
i played Frisbee for P.E.. and you know what i like it.. I'm so active.. Me, Eddy, Asrul & Zhi Chang was in group A.. And i was the only girl in it.. I'm so shy to run and play with them.. and they are boys.. So i plan, lets the boys played and i just relax. run and do nothing but suddenly they played it so semagat so i look pity on them.. they wanna win. so ape lagi.. Join uh.. I play cute and fast and catch the Frisbee. I'm the catcher.. and one good catcher.. Asrul throw the Frisbee so high, he expect me to catch it.. Hello! i'm a girl. A girl who hate mud and sport.. you think what i am dog.. NO NO NO.. haiyoo. but i at lease try to catch it but miss it.. Boo hoo hoo.. And seriously i had fun with my beloved classmate especially azhar.. He made me laugh.. He trip when he try to aviod me from catching it.. hahaha, funny... and i also got push and bit him.. Sorry ehk.. I'm mad at you.. haha, jkjk..

Thursday
Whats wrong with me when tie my hair like that.. i like it.. maybe you should try doing different hair-doo.. Be unqie ehk babe.. I had fun again during CPA.. Talking with hafiz was so like talking with someone who totally understand you and sometime don't understand you.. hahaha.. he just one cute boy, i mean MAN.. Even though you made me mad, i will always know you are joking.. cause i'm your good friend and you my good guy-friend.. .. right hafiz ku. hahaha.. cepat-cepat cari mataer ehk fiz.. Saw that guy drinking his bottle water at recess time.. hahaha. muke lain.. seriously your face look diffent the hair looks dry but still cute.. are you looking at me? i hope not.. i don't want to put high hope on you again.. i still remember when i saw you looking at Aida, i just hate her. and yesterday i felt bad for it and then i told her everything.. She said does not mean he look, he like her.. boleh pe jadi.. But aida don't like him.. So that's good. Make sure you don't like him kae girl.. My eyes are looking at you every time he walk pass us.. *Breathe in & breathe out*
Enough Shidah..

Friday
I'm easily get frustrated and irritated with you.. And today i hate you.. how could you said anyhow about me.. does not mean i didn't said hi or hello does not mean hey i hate you, get away from me.. no right. you my friend pe. you should said shidah aku kat sini or hie shidah even if i did not see you.. That now i was busy with my own stuff can you see.. Urgh.. If you are my friend, you would understand me or at lease don't talk bad things about me.. but you did it and i hate it.. It's okey.. i had other friends to cool me down and happy thoughts.. and wee i pass my Science's test.. i got 13/20.. i know it's bad but who care.. i pass!! Recess was boring.. And hafiz stop it with the"Man Man" lah.. Hahahaha.. And EBS time.. We go to the CPA LAB.. Then i really want to go to the toilet very urgent.Then Rickson kept asking irritating question.. hahaa, i scold him cause i cannot concentrated and tak boleh tahan lah kan.. (: So i asked mr lim(?) that i realy wanna go to the toilet but he said cannot, shit kan.. later i let it out over her baru tahu.. He even asked me to brathe in & out.. And it can't work... stupid.. So whatever lah..
and WEE, i'm so proud at my school soccer's team.. They won and Hong Kah lose.. I'm so sad, cause i think no one can bet Hong Kah's soccer's team but i'm wrong.. So jyeah jyeah.. I'm proud.. and for the School's Concert band, GOOD LUCK ehk for your SYF.. Hope you all got what you wanted..
and i can't wait to Shop and spent my money.. Yeah, i just got $50 from my mum.. And the following friday, i got to spent it.. wee.. i really want that dress and skirt and pants and clothes..

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2009-03-31T18:52:00.004+08:00

I miss math lesson and Lucky i miss it cause i forgot to bring my maths notebook and surely Mr Joel Chia will be mad.. So hurray Angklung, which i played during recess. so call our performances and also for us to get ready for SYF. Even thought we play it nicely but not smoothly but i know we can do our best.. Some of them are disappointed cause no ones look at us or giving us support. we are freaking mad but we still play and imagine there's some one looking at us, cheering for us.. Wow, that's going be great.. But there are also some band's member who are cheering for us.. "thank you thank you".. and i love you people.. I would like to be good friends with our next door classmate, i hate to be figthing and hating people.. Yeah, i like to admit that i hate you once for some stupid childish reason and i know you hate us too.. so im so sorry.. so no no being a bad girl shidah or a stupid one..
So i move on.. maybe everyone should.. hahaha.. if you think you hate your life, change it while you can.. like me.. see maybe im happy with my own decicion. MAKE IT REAL like what me, farrah, hafiz & maybe shahrin once said..

Urgh, i can't stop thinking of yesterday. which i had fun and also something wrong with me.. I told the teacher about aida's short skirt.. I think I'm jealous of her.. I know i being so childish. But i can't help it.. The word come out by itself and that freaking smile which its look so evils. eww, i hate it.. i think I'm going be nice to her tomorrow. Maybe (:

And i love PDM. Which i always have fun doing it and also laughing with anis and that Bastard.. Haha, his name is YJ lah..he called me a bitch.. so that's why i'm calling him bastard or maybe asshole.. But i think bastard uh.. But this all jk jk only.. i know his not serious. cause i can't be a bitch.. But if i'm really really a bitch, i am one super duper friendly bitch..

and yeah-yeah. i brought my math assessment book already. and i immediately went back home and try some sums out..
anw if you wanna see my Genting pictures.. Click at my Sister's Multiply... So enjoy :D

So lets end it with an I love you and I'm sorry..

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2009-03-29T13:39:00.002+08:00
I'm scare of NA FA test. The only thing i know i can do it is Shutter run. I love running but just lazy to run.. I know i will get B for my shutter run and I'm very confident but don't over confident okey, shidah.. So hope tomorrow just a try out for NA FA again.. And i hope that guy will come to school.. So he will save me again at PDM class..
Now i'm bored. Doing nothing is a no no to me.. i really must do something and blogging does not work. but chatting with linda really make me think hard but still not working.. So now currently watching Fred at YouTube.. His very cute.. He is acting like a 8 years old boy.. I watched already count-less time.. so if i like you surely like it too.. But the real him is not like this, he just acting okay..

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2009-03-29T00:28:00.003+08:00

I didn't buy my new red dairy and math assessment book.. Freaking mad at it..

I love watching ToGetHer, Taiwan movie at channel U.. its every Saturday, 9.30pm.. This is the second time i miss the starting cause every Saturday i went out then reach home around 9.50, so boohoo miss it..

So tomorrow, must study Science and other subject.. Shidah, you can do it.. I know i can.. Su, stupid stupid you, you let me remember that Yesterday(Friday) is not a bad dream and its real.. I'm scared.. and i don't want it to happens. i have enough of getting hurt.. So please let me forget that freaking day.. See i love saying "Freaking".. It a very nice word to say..
urgh, i'm tried. so better sleep.. yeah, i must sleep.
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2009-03-28T13:18:00.003+08:00
I think i should forget about yesterday.. Just think yesterday never happened.. and thank Linda, Anis, Nurul, Su, Farrah and maybe AIDA for making me happy and sad at both time.. and also sorry if i hurt you all before and also sorry if yesterday i acted like a ass girl.. I don't know what happened to me. It felt that i almost losing everything. and hope that i would never lose you all. And if anything happened to me, would you be there for me? would you lend me your shoulder? wish yesh.
and I'm smiling again..
and maybe my song will be finish, hope it will be nice to hear.. Haha, i love singing.
am i to dramatic? I think yesh.. I over react if something not right.. Freaking right.. ;D

anw today, i going to buy a new math assessment book and red new dairy.. love it.. I'm going to work hard on my exam this coming April, i think.. So if you see me not smiling at you, it does not mean i'm not friendly but stress over my studies cause it seems that i can't think well cause somethings bothering me, somethings that make me felt unwell..
so tatata people. i going to shoopping !!

ttfn-

2009-03-27T21:01:00.003+08:00

Why must i know the Truth today?
Im freaking sad to hear that Long story where he look at her and what so ever.. I just have to accept it right. and what can i do? i can't do anything. I just have to stup up and accept life.. I hate today, i hate life.. Why must it be unfare and i want it to be perfect and to be what i wanted it to be.. but it always never be.. DAMN freaking. and shit i got eye bags.. very big ones.. back to that topic.. Must i hate her for liking him? and does she like him? but i surely know he like her.. What so great about that girl.. she not even clever and what so ever.. She just have a pretty face.. urgh.. Shidah stop it.. don't be over just because of this.. She still my friend.. Just cool down.. Think about things that i like, things that i love, things that make me happy..
:D
I just finish watching Radit love Jani.. i like that movie. so Sweet and it have an unexpected ending. and i cry went he leave her cause he does't want her to get hurt.. I cry and i love that movie.. Urgh, i just love indonesia movie when it comes to love and sad part... i wish my life is like that but to bad its just a movie.. but my life is more execiting.. Maybe i can make a movie about my life.. Yeah, that gonna be cool..
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2009-03-22T20:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah, yesterday i got to played bowling and firstly i sucked at it then suddenly whose, i played like an expert.. hahaha, like real. i'm learning to play it and wee i finally played it seriouly.. no i laugh went it went to the Lonkang(?) or what people call it.. And went it hit the Pins, i shouted and smiling at myself.. I know macam orang giler ehk.. ((:
Now i love playing Bowling and i wanna play some more.. Kakak & Iksan & duh me wanna played Archire but when we went down the place close aready, damn.. Cause it's too late and it aready 8 something o'clock.. i think the place close at around 7..
Then before We went back, we all ate at the nearest Makan place.. Yummy and i think i put on weight.. Shit, but it's okay..
And today went to Nyayi's house for Father's side Family Gathering.. And also got many many yummy food.. So i just enjoy eating and playing with my small cousin and big cousin.. Wow, i love them all.. Really :D

and jyeah!! tomorrow school reopen. and boohoo my stress will come back again.. i'm so fed up lah.. i hate school but sometimes i love school and sometimes i blank.. and i wanna perm my hair and faster faster hair grow long grow long so i can perm my hair.. and i wanna cut my fringe, i wanna cut bangs(?) and always when i wanna cut bangs(?) selalu the auntie cut wrongly,i hate you auntie!! hahaha... (:
shit!! now my hair suck. please god make my hair pretty, make it long.. *smiling at myself*

Every day and Every night I wish you could understand me..
ttfn-

2009-03-21T23:26:00.003+08:00

Genting was Amazing & Great.. the temperature was cooling and cold.. The people was okey... And i think everything was okey and i love it over there.. Wish i could stay there a little bit long but we went back Thursday morning and reached home almost going to midnight, whoose Tried.... And the bas ride was freaking boring, i just watched Chinese drama at the tv and that drama was okey and i pretty enjoy watching it, sleep alot since we can adjust the sit and read my Cleo magazine.. I like the M.A.C Hello Kitty make-up, i wish i got to buy that make-up.. It's so nice and i Love Hello Kitty..
We played indoor and outdoor activity.. We played until 12 midnight and we took allot of picture.. and i really had fun over there.. Luckly it did't rain like last year, and this year it was sunny and cold..
I & Sis brought Adidas's Sling bag, Mine dark blue and hers red AND many Delicious food.. Yeah, i eat allot.. Really allot.. Cause the food is very yummy.. Mum brought again this handbag from CarloRino and also many many souvenir and dad did't brought anything, he just follows us anywhere we want to go and help carrying it.. See my father is very strong and have a good heart like me.. (:
I really like that high waist skirt from MANGO and that Shade from CarloRino but i did't get to buy it.. Damn right.. It's okey, i could try finding these item at Singapore.. My homeland.. And i would like find and after that buy this demin overall which i think at forever 21.. and i would be the happiest girl ever cause i get that demin overall.. If you saw it, you surely want to buy it.. Cause i saw it and i wanna buy it, soo must save money or must beg/ask for money...
i can't stop giggling when i remember how wonderful life is..

school is gonna be reopened on Monday which is the day after today night and tomorrow. and I'm not prepared for anything and also my english project which i think i did't work that hard on it but i'm still trying and hope joyce,Yuan Jian & Tin Sum will turn up and help me breathe slowly and i want to score excellent in everything but i can't and i always do mistake and scared learning from it. I'm scared of everything but i still wanna tried and not to give up quickly. (:
:D
:D
i'm tried
sp good night human

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2009-03-15T20:21:00.003+08:00

should i have my own private blog??
No, that will be not gerek..
and i dare to put about life and people i hate in here but
i just don't like being rude or whatsnot..
so i just wrote this too you.. not you you i mean that person..
and yah, i don't dare to put her/his name cause they have feeling and they maybe want their privacy..
so enjoy it..

Sorry If I grab your sentences but is this for me.. I like to said something.. You might not be straight-forward, meaning what? I quite don’t understand.. I’m different now? Like how? Please describe it properly to me. Cause I like to know, beloved friend.. Yah, I did said I want to grow up & think big.. so what am I doing now, thinking small ehk? And I think im growing but but I still wanna keep the childish side of me cause I’m still young and I love being a kid and there’s always a kid in you too okay.. and about that guy, who told you uh, I know it must be our kind friend, (I don’t want to put her name) yah, it’s a gurl.. if not for that gurl, would you know all of this. If salah paisey ehk babe.. but it’s okey, cause everyone makes mistake pe.. What if I like him now, but I do not felt comfortable with it because when you saw him you will be look at me with that face.. That kampong face.. hahaha.. Really love that word.. and I know you will be complaining to your friend saying this and that, if you’re not complaining you must a lease talk about me.. and im right about it.. cuase you did talk about me.. Don’t worry gurl, I also did talk about you.. but not that serious uh. Just childish behavior and childish talking.. ((:
I know I like him but It also because of you but hack care ehk gurl.. aku pun tk kesah lah kalau ko nk benci aku psl ni.. but seriously I would like to say I’m trying to stop liking him and move now pe lah, tak caye tu ko yer pasal lah.. Cause ini kau pe, I know what im doing, but maybe I’m not. But whatever back to that subject.. Yah, I did asked for his number but I never said that to him and you think what I dare saying that to him.. noo I would not to that.. tu pun kawan kita yg mintak number budak dier.. but aku tk der mintak number dier agie pe cuase i dah lose hope like you lose hope.. (klau tk fhm, tk kesah.) anw can you just kept it low. and u think i have time too mgs mgs bdk tk cukup umur tu and bkn aku suke dier pe.. and why must name aku klaur dulu menatng mentang aku mgs dier, name aku kluar uh.. yah , i did mgs him but that cause of my friend pe.. what kind of friend i am if aku tk tolong sama kawan-kawan aku.. HAIYOO. aku famous uh, nantie.. bagus bagus aku suke.. puihh uh.. but hack care uh.. whatever you going to say about me. go lah.. but i know you have your own life, so live you own freaking good live and i live with mine.. cause that's my buisness okey.. and i like make this to the end.. Reaaly, i hate being bad and i hate talking bad stuff and whatever bad people doo. cause im not that kind of person, i'm a good self-centre(?) kind-hearted and friendly gurl.. and did't mean people asked for your number mean i crazy in love with you... it mean "hello, im friendly. and i would like to know more about you" or "Hello, and nice knowing you" okey people.
cause I’m a shy gurl.. yah, that’s the OLD me, shy and scared fighting for my right.. but you know,now and dulu semua sama, I’m still Siti Noorashidah pe.. But just a little bit different uh.. Yah I must admit I’m different but Im still me.. See, I’m over reacting.. And I hate being so Over, cuase it’s too drama-mama… BUT i still love you kae, shayang.. ttfn-

2009-03-15T18:44:00.003+08:00

Yeah, that's my sister !!
Siti Noorashikin (: a.k.a Maya ;P
Ex-Hong Kah student and now she's we be studying in Temasek Polytechnic

See i'm proud at my one and only sister ... Who will not be proud at your own clever sister.. Cause i am and you should be too... She's Smarter then me but i'm better then her.. Muahahaha Muahahaha..
I always take care of her and yah she take care of me too.. But i don't know why i always act that im bigger then her and she always act like a small girl.. wait, i know why she act like that cause she going be 20 in 2 years time.. Hahaha, kakak dah tue... bluek ;p and i'm stil young... Hurray !!
but sometime she's fierce and scary looking but still I LOVE HER.. hahaha, cheh cheh..
and she talented, you know.. and i'm talented too.. hahaha.. She played the guitar while i do all the singing.. wee, we going be famous.. hahahaha. funny ehk.. but sweet pe.. The "ss" Sister.. Cool ehK?

Soo when i, i mean we going be famous.. i will like to thank our parent and our friends and family.. yeah, wake up wake up shidah..
and now im excited cause tomorrow i will be going GENTING !!
must wake up early tomorrow cause must be at the bas place at 7 something i think..
and thank linda for that jacket of your.. will be returning soon as possible okey shayang... and guys make sure you don't fight when im gone and enjoy the day camp and your holiday.. weee..
and Have a nice day okey.. LOVE you people many many...

ttfn-

2009-03-13T18:44:00.003+08:00

The thruth is I'm done pretending

I'm stress out with EBS project, English project and Science test and the date line is opening of school .. Whoo.. and i think i'm the only person in my group who cares about it and want to scored better marks.. But i'm confident that i can do it all by myself but please help me kae.. cause i'm freaking out and when i freaking out i can't think..! Shit.. and Jyeah, i will be going to Genting Highlands on Monday morning.. Wee, im so excited but firstly i must finish my project first before i can go enjoy.. So hopefully on Friday on any day i will ask you guys to come to my house or anyones house to finish our project.. Just bare with me and we will be finish it and present it with pride.. cheh, macam paham ehk aku ni..

And i haven't finish my song yet.. but i found the prefect tempo. fake... hahaha. I still not yet decide.. And i'm sick, running nose really irritated.. I used 6 Packed of Tissue paper and 1 big boxes of tissue paper and i still not feeling well.. i need to be well so i can enjoy the Holidays.. Mummy said just rest and drink plenty of mineral water.. but here i'm blogging and typing words with the keyboard of mine laptop.. and i want to drink Cold Milo but i'm freezing in my room and i want hot water but my throat is killing me.. It's really really killing me.. PLEASE be my hero and save me from this pain and sickness.. cause it's killing me step by step..

anw i'm wanna say thank you for all sweet people who always make my day shine and sorry to the people i have hurt before and who misunderstood me.. Hehehe, see i'm so kind-hearted..
i need to think right now, thinking of words that can be in my song, words that describe the person and life..

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2009-03-12T19:51:00.010+08:00

i love you guys many many (:

I wrote a song and it's for a guy who i always saw everyday, i mean every Monday to Friday.. He's unique in his own way. i think cause i barely know him and we barely talk to each other.. So this song is what i think of that guy..

Every time i walked near your class
Saw you
Standing outside your classroom
with that face once i saw you staring blanking at me
We never talk or smile cause we barely know each other
So its gonna take time
for me to be your friend..

i haven't yet finish the whole song cause i still thinking for the other part, i mean the course.. So when im done.. i try singing it to my friends, so wish it will be one great song..
and that guy, you should be proud that i wrote a song for you not for you i mean about you.. yah about you.. thank ehk for giving me idea...
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2009-03-11T18:16:00.003+08:00

I said "Whatever happened to you?
It's been two years where have you been?"
And I guess all my fears were true
The words are all gone
The times been too long
It's not too late to say"Sorry to a friend"

I just love every single day, laughing :D

2009-03-09T20:18:00.004+08:00

*Just ignore my stupid face okay*

Yuan Jian, why did you absent urself from school today urh? i had difficulties in school, during PDM today.. You're the only one that can save me. I can said that you're my hero. Cheh, no lah. too bad yor not.. hehehehe

2009-03-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to Nenek’s house for Family Gathering.. Wee, I love family gathering cause I got to spent my whole attired day with my sweet/gerek cousin and my two adorable toddler..
We ate and we talked about every things that happened in life.. I had fun of course.. and i spooked with my two toddler and I asked them what’s the shape of the bowl, and I teach them 1,2,3 and so oon .. They grown so fast and they are very clever and also active little children.. and now I miss them.. I miss kissing them, I miss hugging them and I miss talking to them.. aww, they are one small cute children..

And Today, which I always spent my time at home.. Watching DVDs, surfing the net, Singing while my sister played the guitar and now I’m blogging.. Woo, Im bored.
I could died because of this.. I want to go out, I want to go to the gym to lose all my fatness, I want to go out to the library to study.. but I can’t.. my mum don’t let me.. hey, im big already, I can make my own decision. You know! Lucky Linda still mgs me so I got someone to complain and share secret with.

Wee, tomorrow I’m going to school.. yeah, I can at lease talk to my friends and also study and screaming at Syukuri.. I love doing that cause I don’t why but I just love it but I doing it cause he’s asking for it not that I’m a rude girl but just he always disturb me and I get frustrated so I scream at him...... wee, I’m gonna be happy. Hopefully I’m going to be happy. Please don’t make me freak out cause I hate freaking out, it makes me look horrible/terrible and sometimes I love laughing at stupid lame jokes and even thought I don’t understand it, I just laugh. You will always see me laughing for no reason… and it does not mean that I’m crazy but I’m just too happy...

And at last Linda online.. so now im chatting with her.. wee, we talk about boys talk about this and that.. gerek you know. And that’s why I love her soo much.. and I don’t know why I love to used and Gerek and the word love..
You know what.. My sister called me Mariam, and she thinks that I’m her personal maid.. Giler yer kakak.. I’m your sister okey and I’m not your maid.. but its fun acting like one. Hahaha. I know you will never understand my life..
Linda: Good Job finding his Friendster. And I have fun looking at his photo.. hahaha, the face very “cute”.. ouh my, that rude right.. stop stop being rude..
Now I feel like singing, soo what song should I sing??
And I love singing.. I always pretend that i am singing in front of a thousands people.. whoo, that will be scary.. and it will never going to happened cause I not that brave.. but I wish that I can do it cause I want to show off that I like singing.. Hahaha. Mepek.. I know..

And now I’m craving for Chocolate & bubble tea & also green tea & apple tea..
And I wanna try the new Kinder Joy.. I bet its yummy..
So if you’re a kind-hearted girl/boy, please buy for me.. hahaha, tak tahu malu yer pnpm..
But it’s okey.. Tomorrow I will be buying all of that.. Yah Linda… If besok I never buy That chocolate I will cry.. Cause Chocolates make me Happy..
I’m crazy over Chocolate and that’s why my face have Pimples.. hehehe.. Disgusting right.. but im making an effort to make them disappear. Like Magic..
And Im not that sleepy but my mum asked me to go to bed.. See tomorrow I have PE and I will be very active and I hate running, no I love running but im tried of running.. yah, that’s correct.. and then after school I have CCA “Angklung” Start at 2.30 finish at 6 something I think.. I love my CCA but I hate the people over there. No lah… I only jk jk. No fun if there no joke right.. And Taran will always said this. “You know I joke” Cute right.. but the person not cute but Gerek.. I love everyone in my class.. And I love Rahmat and Hasmir.. I told my secret to them.. wait I mean love as a friends not love as that love.. Ouh no, I think I need to do something but I just can’t remember what the things.. Ouh well, lets just forget about it..

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2009-03-06T21:58:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking all these days that am i someone to you?
all these day we just look but never smile, why?
am i disgusting or ?

i really tried but i wanna watch this Ghost Movie at Channel 8 and the show start at around 11 something..and i must not sleep..and i heard a lot people said that, that movie is quite scary so i wanna watch it.. Wee~ i just love scary movie!! do you love scary movie?
I know, Shidah Grow up and think big ... Chatting with linda is so the Gerek.. Yok belakun same sama agie.. i really don't know what to talk/type anymore, so i stop here kae darlink..
and tomorow going to Grandmother's house.. "Family Gathering" Haiyoo, mesti ada bayak makanan uh.. Gemuk lah..

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2009-03-06T18:16:00.001+08:00

i really wish i could tell you the truth but I'm just too scared.
So i better shut up and kept on hiding..
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2009-03-05T20:03:00.004+08:00

Im changing
so better be thankful

Soorry linda for what just happened at school just now. Im really sorry but im thankful that you are my friend and you said that your were not mad at me.. So you already knows who is "Rashiq" & "Aciq" right? so its gonna be awkward when i'm going to talk about him, i mean them.. But if you felt angry or what so ever just tell me kae, friend ((;
And now i'm singing every old new what so ever song that i knew and i don't know why im so happy.. Is it because of life..?? or people around me?? argh!!
I wish i can be brave to sing in front of Thousand of people but i can't.. im not afraid to let people hear my voice but im scared of people laughing and saying things about it.. But i love my voice, you know.
anw Joyce giler gurl, i really have fun dancing Cha Cha with you.. and if you people saying that me & my amazing friends and also best best girlfriends are crazy or lame or what so ever you are thinking of, you are wrong.. Kita gerek oi.. and we always remember to have fun and laugh our ass off(?).. hahahaha.. Im over and so dramatic.
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2009-03-03T16:03:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Hafiz!!
My irritating nice handsome friend (:
hahaha..
Chey Hafiz big boy already and ingat Jangan nottie nottie taw...
And hope you will success in the future.

So school was per normal..
Having fun talking with Rahmat and Hasmir.. And Rahmat biler ko nk kasi aku number dier.. hahaha, i must be patient right..
and Aida don't be sad and just forgive him okey..
and i think today i laugh alot with Aida.. Yurp, we a bit crazy
:D
I think u'r a loser cause you kept runing away from your mistake.. and gurl don't asked you friends too look at me like im in the wrong okay, i don't want to make problem cause i hate fighting and hating you..and i want to be friendly so stop it okay... and you can have that guy, i don't want him anymore..
Fake

i want everything to be perfect,
i want everything to be just the way im want it to be..
but its always turns out to be the opposite way..

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2009-03-01T22:21:00.008+08:00
Hello people (:
Yesterday went out to watch Kude Kempang(?) near boon lay, with my 4 beeutiful people...
The other 2 beeutiful people, Anisah and Farrah could not follow cause of family reason..
So i bare with it and still haed on with our plan..
I saw some similar faces but i act like i don't recognise them, hahah i know. Sombong!!
I'm friendly but it was so hoot over there and i can't stand it so i lazy to smile and i know they will also act act tk kenal.. Meyampah(?) aku!!

Now is like 11.11 pm
and im not in bed...
haiyoo
soo goodnite peeople (:

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2009-02-27T18:43:00.002+08:00

Today i felt like an Angle
flouting and helping people
Smiling to every single human-being
winkwink*FAKE*

I laugh, smile and study alot..
i love Friday..
Do you love Friday??
always every Friday, me and girlfriends went to the library to play PS3 & study together & having fun..
i thought i would express my feeling toward you but you're busy with all your stuff and i scared you might laugh at me or dare to hurt my feeling..But i confident enough that your not that kind of person..

and
ya hurray!!
tomorrow i will able to go out with Girlfriends ((:
thank you mother.. i love you many many....

and remember do smile at me kae
cause im very friendly (:
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2009-02-26T18:38:00.002+08:00

My sassy girl chun Hyang

Storyline:
"A man fulfills his fate by evading it" Fate really has its ways to find two people meant for each other, no matter how far they are from one another, no matter what time of the day they meet each other, no matter when and no matter who you are and where you came from. Fate finds you?even in the most unexpected moments of your life. "

Actor & Actress: Han Chae-young as Sung Chun-hyang
Jae-hee as Lee Mong-ryong

2009-02-26T18:27:00.001+08:00

Thinking of you by Katy Perry

2009-02-26T16:38:00.004+08:00

i love you
but i'm just too scared to tell you so.

I'm just to tried.
and today I felt like crying every single minute and i don't know why..
i need to wake up cause this is life and i need to focus on my studies..
I bet my CPA, math and also Science going be horrible cause i can't concentrate cause im siting at the back where i can see people talking and playing, so how should i concentrate uh...
and now im hungry!! and waiting for my mum to bring foods is so damn frustrating..
shit!!!
i'm a bad girl. this few days, im been scolding people for no reason.. the only reason why i scold you is because im just too jealous that you got him but i don't.. Yupe, that's the reason why i hate you soo much.. But i need to move on and be good..
and its been raining raining..
Please don't rain on March Holiday.. I want it to be sunny and cold and i wanna play the fun fun rides at Genting...
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2009-02-24T16:14:00.003+08:00

If only i can turn back the time
to straighten my life..
Shit... I feeling sick today...
Let me not talk about what happen today at school.. Cause i can't accept the fact that you aready have a freaking gurlfriend..
And budak babi, sial saket sak aku yer toot.. klau nk campak eraser aku jgn lah kene kat aku yer toot.. Laen tempat leh pe.. Bodoh.. aku tau ko tk segaje but malu sak aku... Orang yang duduk sebelah aku nampak taw, then ko leh ketawe kan, happy happy marah aku.. Giler.. Ingat! Aku tk akan bbual dgan ko sampai ko mintak maaf kat aku..
and Kawan cine ku what happen to you today.. Firstly you were just fine, talking hyperly to me And saving me from A tin guy who was trying to step on my shoe.. ( i would not type their names)Then when its come to EBS lesson, you sleep. All you did is sleep.. You said you were tried... Okay. Whatever, i will not talk about this anymore..
and After school we went to sit at the normal place that we always sat. The atmosphere was very cooling and it started to rain slowly then heavily.. And i did not bring my umbrella again... So i just walk slowly through the cool cool wind and wet wet raindrops... Haiyoo, Two days it was raining and now i don't felt well.. I just wanna close my eyes and sleep and drink a hot hot chocolate with whip cream and small small marshmallows. But i can't cause i dun dare to miss my Favourite Korean movie.. I like that show very much and i can't miss it.. So i just have to tahan for a little while.. ((:
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2009-02-23T20:47:00.004+08:00

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you-
I love you

Im damn happy!!
"Yayhooray"
*Jumping and screaming*
"Weeeeeee"
Girlfriends and Guyfriends and people you rock.. and i love you (:
so yesterday was like the worst day ever cause i found out that he's not single.. he already have a gurl..
boo hoo

Then today was amazing.. Was great.. I laugh a lot, smile a lot.. I sang a song for Anisah during PDM, haha..
"He kiss my lips, i taste your mouth and soo ooon" (Thinking of you by Katy Perry)
She laugh at me.. I think my voice were out of tune.. hahaha..
and PDM was gerek, do talk a lot with that guy who make me smile again..
Today he was my hero..
He saved me from all stressfulness that came across me. hehe
cause i can't sweep the diagram.. (PDM stuff)
anw Rahmat you can do it, don't give up.. I will always support you kae, friend.. Klau pnpm tu tk nk ko, gy cari yg laen taw.. hahaha (:
and Eddy hahaha, best kene sepak?? haha, aku kan dah blg ko.. Don't test my anger okay, boy..but you make me laugh.. so im happy with you..
and Zairul i can bet you at math.. Just get ready your $2 note..
And lastly, Yj are you using me...?? When sheila or Joyce didn't come to school.. u talk to me.. When they came.. You ignored me..
You used me when you need and you throw me when you don't need me. I'm not a tissue paper & i really hate to be in this situation. At least, i'm happy enough because you talked to me but i realised, you only talk to me whenever you're bored.

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2009-02-22T21:08:00.005+08:00

And I turn around
You're with her now.. *shit*

Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad Im sad

Yupe you two really look sweet together.. very sweet !!
So please don't try to make me felt jealous or even more sad cause i am jealous and sad.. Damn..
soo i wanna eat chocolate ice-cream and sweet sweet lollipop, they make me happy..
so if you felt eating that too, come join me... I dying to eat them..
but they have fats in them and i waanna lose 10kg..
Puff.. Hack Care...
so friends.
hope you guys can make me happy again..
and
Im strong right?
yah, strong..
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2009-02-21T23:52:00.007+08:00
Hello people !! (:
Just came back home from Auntie's house
to Harbour Front(i think the spelling is like this)
jurong east
them home sweet home..

Im so tried of walking
but im not that sleepy
so decided to blog first ...
I didn't brought any stuff but i found this cool bag and cute purse from this shop that i forget to look at the shop name..
i could not brought it cause i need to save money for something that i wanna buy for a friend.. s
so yah i just look and walk away..
so this are some of the picture i took with my sister and mother...

so enjoy the picture?
haha, i hope yesh uh..
so i have nothings to type about
soo i better sleep now cause it aready 12.14
so goodnight beeutiful and sexy people...
dream of me okay.. hahaha..
jk jk only urh... (:
:D

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2009-02-21T17:12:00.003+08:00

Geting ready to go out with family..
itu pun sempat anu blog and so on..
pasal my father and mother belom balik kerja..
sooo..
we are Going to see my auntie's new born baby..
baby are soo cute, that's why im going..
i like babies allot..
i wish i had a younger sibling but haha too bad i can't..
hehee...
Yupe im the younger..
cause i only had one sister..
and no brother..

and now i can't wait too see their cute little nose and hands and feet's.. Aww my be so tiny and soft..

and i wish i had a brother cause brother can be the hero to all problem and sister are boring but brother are amazing and fun.. and i want a pet cat..
Cats are also cute but they sometimes step cute cause they want attention.. (:
hahaha, i know i don't have a cat so how should i know.?
i knew cause anisah, my good friend tell me that and she have many cat but some of them die..
soo sad right..
hahaha..
see i have many topic to type about..
now is 5.26 pm
and im going out at 6.00 pm sharp..
so bye beeutiful gurl and bye handsome guys...
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2009-02-21T13:59:00.002+08:00

I'm too late..
he's aready belong to you..

Yaw.. Yesterday was okay..
I'm lazy to tied my hair so i just tied half .. so dun say i showing off or what you people are thinking..
Hhaahah. sorry ehk su, yupe im a betrayer.. But i can't control taking to him but at lease i try right..
he and me comperes whose hand is bigger.. it turns out boy hands are bigger than girl hand.. so my hand are smaller then his hand.. yaw i becoming lamer and happier and having more more big and small problem but I'm too lazy to solve it so i just ignored it.. yupe I'm scared to slove my own problem... So i have friends to help me..
After school went to the library to playd PS3.. gerek uh but the game were so boring.. Aida play Skate, Julinda played Racing and i played Transformer.. We secretly took photo.. and why can't school library lets us use phones...
"sign"
Im bored.. So im luckly to have something to play or use at home..
And waiting for my mum to came back from work lagi boring But luckly i have one sister who always make me do something, i mean bully me to do this to do that. Im not complaining okay..
I just like doing something that i hate the most.. really.. i hate studies but i still do it right.. see.. okey shidah stop it..
im done typing
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